Roclynn

As I have mentioned before, I am fiercely passionate about photography. One type of photography I am interested in is fashion, and lately I have been shooting my friend Roclynn. She is a working model here in Los Angeles and has a lot of experience. A rare beauty with hair of a goddess. I absolutely love shooting her!

So, I thought I would share a few photos. I'm always looking for critique and love any type of feedback - so feel free to leave me your thoughts :)

Black Or White?

It probably comes to no surprise that I am completely obsessed with ALL Apple products. I've owned almost all versions of their MacBook and currently have the wonderful iPhone 3G. Yet, it is time for me to purchase the new iPhone. I went to the Apple store today and found out that they are coming out with a white one at the end of the month. The downside is that there's a chance it will be even harder to get since they are only releasing a limited quantity. However, I really, really want the white one. On another note, my current iPhone is about to die. It is so glitchy and so slow. What should I do?

Which one do you want?

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“There were so many fewer questions when stars were still just the holes to heaven...”

My mind and heart are still reeling from the surgical mission I went on last month.

I've always dreamed of spending my life making people smile ... And this was the ultimate dream.

Yet, this experience has made me question everything. Every choice I must make. Every dream I have. Every passion I want to pursue. And most distressing, what should be my next move?

Living in Los Angeles for the past year has clearly appeased my appetite for big city living. Now, this city just seems like a joke. Most people driving around in their BMW's, searching for money, fame and their next fling. So vapid and shallow... Of course there are benefits to living here - which I can't discount. There are endless opportunities for so many professions... And I really am excited to explore my photography path here. Nevertheless, after experiencing an Op Smile mission, everything else seems a bit frivolous.

I promise you, I AM a generally optimistic person, it's just that the 10 days I spent in Kenya changed me. The volunteers changed me. They were the most beautiful people I have ever met. And so were the children. They are all such inspirations. The smiles, the love, the warmth and joy - all so infectious and sincere. It's no wonder my father retired from Plastic Surgery to dedicate his life to Operation Smile. If only I could do that...

As I ponder my life, I wanted to share the slideshow from the Nairobi Mission. What a delight to have my work be part of such an incredible organization. Enjoy! :)

Operation Smile, Kenya Slideshow

Home...

I can't help but wonder where I'm meant to be.

Los Angeles just doesn't feel like home.

Sure, I love this city. It's vibrant, eclectic and the weather is glorious most of the year. Nevertheless, I'm not like most of the residents in this crazy city. I smile at people who look like they are having a bad day, I'm a considerate driver, I don't care about fame (or famous people in general), I don't drink (much), and I really don't enjoy nightclubs. I'm a genuinely optimistic, free spirited, caring person and there is a very good chance living here will attempt to destroy that.

In my previous relationship, I saw myself moving to Portland, Oregon. That's where I spent my high school years and always saw us having a family and growing old there. But without him, things seem so different. I could see myself living in New Zealand. Or London. Even Spain. If only I could move far from this country, fall in love and spend my life taking photos and going on surgical missions :)

Such a dreamer I am...

Is moving out of the US a realistic dream?

I would love to hear stories from anyone who has made a drastic move or knows anyone who has just packed up and left the county.

Since I'm missing home, enjoy a few pictures from Oahu: